i r stoopid

why do these old feelings arise in the worst possible times? i want to open my mouth and say things that i never should but i keep it all locked away deep inside where it should stay. how long is this going to last? will it ever end? will either of us find happiness? in this life? and i dont mean just temporary happiness. real true happiness. i'm not talking about love either. that shit doesnt exist.
thats me in the corner. losing my sanity.
a fly on the wall.
if these walls could talk they would be admitted to an insane asylum.

i just heard the saddest song. la la la la, la la la

a day to remember-if it means alot to you. listen to it and you'll know the emotions i'm going through.
i'm sorry to say, but i'll love you forever.

cut my wrists and black my eyes.

i wish i could do something to make you feel (happy) again.
i feel useless right before the car goes flying of fthe cliff. all i can do is hang on, clench my knuckles til they turn white and try to make it to the bottom.

the dust settles. the paramedics come and survey the scene. bodies? yes.
three. one in critical condition. it looks like victim A tried to take the wheel. everyone else is still alright.
*coughs * blood sputters onto my shirt, "is everyone alright?" Victim B "we're all okay, a few cuts and bruises but we'll make it. You did good, you saved us." Victim B looks at V A, " we're gonna make... Hey! We need a medic over here!, don't go... keep you're eyes open! No! don't leave me now... Victim A stares into the sunny sky, eyes clouding over..

VA " come closer, it'll be all right, i'll see you again one day. don't cry for me, go live your life and remember how i lived my life, not this, not how i died. i'll always love you.....
End Scene.

good god, this thing still exists?

wow. so what all can i tell you? there probably isnt anyone who still follows this so it doesnt matter what i say does it?
i went to prison in 09 and got out april 21st 2010.
i lost my sister last year.
i moved in with my ex, her baby, her boyfriend and his grandmother.
my name is Tobeh now.
but you can call me Kunta-Kinte'.


seriously whats the point of typing all this out lol. i need to put my facebook and blogger and myspace all together. brb y'all