this is ghey as fuck.

im at brandons using his peice of shit laptop, actually laptop is nice, internet is shit.
but yea i got a new truck, new to me that is.
a black s-10 thats automatic and no power steering, no cd player.
oh well i'll live for a while with just the radio and a few cassets that my mom gave me.
cayley came up the other day and hung out. idk i feel bad for everything that happened but i dont know what i want in life.
she wants me, i can feel it and see it in her eyes , but i dont think i can give her all of me, i want to live free and unchained like a wild beast, untethered and mobile. idk i guess im just a dirty slut and i like sex too much to just be with one person, im not trying to settle down soon, if ever. p.s. brandon is a queer.
i can't really be committed to anyone if my heart is with another either. i'm never going to get over her, i can see that. sometimes i wish i could, but sometimes its the only way i can tell that i'm still alive. pain drives me.
i just wish that scars faded faster.
wow i went from happy to depressed to just plain ol cynical. wtf yo.
brandon wants to drive his ass all the way to fuckin calera from Vallo to get a god damn ice cream cone, what is that shit about?
i fucking hate fakes, frauds, losers and pussies. if u cant man up and be real about shit then stay the fuck out of my way or i'll run your weak ass over.
fuck fuck fuckitty-fuck-fuck
i need to relax. Tabi, can i have some candy?