god i feel like shit now.

i feel like im being Her now. checking Her blog, watching her youtube. missing Her voice. i feel sick to my stomach, im getting hot all over like a fever you can't sweat out.
I'm crying again. no one sees this side of me anymore.
I thought she was gone, not caring about me.
sometimes i think it'd be better if she stayed there.
i need to live. i feel dead inside though
.
that period shoulda been with the scentance
i suck at spelling and idc right now.
i wish i was near her right now. not with. near.
cuz i don't think i could show my face around her. but i would like to see her
like in beauty and the beast, the mirror?
yea i just want to see if she is really happy.
i want to die as of yesterday.
im getting kicked out but all i feel like is -shrug- i dont feel.