"keep the blood in your head, keep your feet on the ground"

i love this song. there are just a handful of people who will know it just from that line. i kinda miss her. but i can't tell her these things.
kinda sucks don'it?
the song is practically blaring through my headphones now. dude i didn't know u could do spell check on the blogger lol. i thought it was just in like word or something.
anyway. i Was planning on moving to Dothan AL.
now i have decided to move into my Grandma's house in Calera AL. i am really excited because I'm VERY positive that I'll get the job at walmart, all I'm waiting on is my drug screen and bg check to come back. then I should be starting this Monday. I really hope that everything will work out
at the same time though, i want to lay down and die.
I don't feel anything, im tired, i feel alone and empty.
I want to cry so hard that i just float away in my tears.
I hurt too many people and now it hurts me to think about it.
I have 2 cigarettes left, and it's only 11:43 am.
i have zero dollars.
and ima have this delilah song stuck in my head all day. FUCK
god
i still miss her.
I know it's wrong, but it's never gonna end. grrr

great now I'm crying again. fuck this all of it.

i need some nice heavy metal thrash type sound to rip my ears off for a while. gah. a few people called last night but i didnt even want to talk to anyone. GOD FUCK SHIT BOBSAGET!
I wish i could go back in time . but then if i did, nothing would be as it is.
i dont know what i wish or want or need anymore. i thought that getting a job would make me so happy, and it did, for like 5 minutes. i finally got my liscense and that made me excited for almost a day. but no car means i cant go anywhere at all really. and why am i spending so much time with brandon you people ask? because he is still a very good friend of mine and is fun to hang with and easy to talk to and he actually helps me with my problems and listens, and i try to help him through his issues and problems. so if u wanna talk shit, do it somewhere else.

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~TriggleStick~