i wish...

i wish things could be the same,
wish i could tell you things, in person,
that i can tell you on here with such ease,
wish you would hold me again, acknowledge my presence,
i was there, but i felt all alone,
smoke til you choke,
drink so you won't think,
about anything til tomorrow,
is it real, is it real,
i can't even feel, you right beside me.
i want to die.